Wednesday, May 22nd, 2013 02:35 pm
1. Scifi author Kameron Hurley keeps writing articles the titles of which seem so enormously appealing? Because they're all about writing matriarchies and stepping away from Western history as the basis of everything and writing women and brutality and war and needless to say ALL OF THESE ARE MY INTERESTS but it's like... after two books I think were genuinely very good (though not unflawed) she wrote the latest part of her trilogy in a way that was utterly terrible and full of racist/sexist/etc fail and I... I just can't take her writing about these issues seriously anymore. Even though she'd likely have interesting things to say regardless? I just can't bring myself to read any non-fiction she's written about how not to fail. IDK. I'm more willing to buy her next book if it looks promising than I am to read a 1000 word essay on writing.
2. Work is work, today, and so of course I went on tumblr and searched for "science bros". Among many NSFW and delightfully intimate images, this one has cheered me up the most (SFW). I don't even know. (Also, made me think of
thingswithwings's fic, of course.)
3. Other delightful things, I keep stumbling upon this in an open tab and smiling - junior hockey players kiss after a win. What makes this truly delightful is how utterly unapologetic they were about it afterwards. Not that I want to write about the way culture constructs masculinity around violence - sports, the military - and how every single "tough guy" occupation is actually an occupation where you have an unbelievable level of intimacy with your (same-gender) coworkers and the cultural work that goes into "normalizing" that intimacy and distancing itself from anything romantic and sexual when the spectrum of human feelings is really not that black and white... oh wow can you tell I'm back in academia? Took a semester but apparently my sociologist brain is back in high gear.
4. God, the past few days have been like waking up from a crash. The last 2 weeks were basically heavy cortisol intake and it's taking my body a while to recover. Every day I'm a bit less tired, but everything is still kind of overwhelming. My mom, whose birthday it is today, has also decided that this week is Mourning Over How Not Alike She And I Are week so every day I've called her she's been super distant and/or started crying on the phone, refusing to tell me what's wrong because "if I don't understand then she can't explain to me". I just. I'm far away, there's nothing I can do, if I don't call her daily she gets upset, when I do call she cries and refuses to tell me what's up, my dad says she's been fine at home so clearly it's something specifically to do with me and I just. I am so tired of playing this game and especially double, super tired considering my goal for this week is to make it through without hopping back on the stress train.
2. Work is work, today, and so of course I went on tumblr and searched for "science bros". Among many NSFW and delightfully intimate images, this one has cheered me up the most (SFW). I don't even know. (Also, made me think of
3. Other delightful things, I keep stumbling upon this in an open tab and smiling - junior hockey players kiss after a win. What makes this truly delightful is how utterly unapologetic they were about it afterwards. Not that I want to write about the way culture constructs masculinity around violence - sports, the military - and how every single "tough guy" occupation is actually an occupation where you have an unbelievable level of intimacy with your (same-gender) coworkers and the cultural work that goes into "normalizing" that intimacy and distancing itself from anything romantic and sexual when the spectrum of human feelings is really not that black and white... oh wow can you tell I'm back in academia? Took a semester but apparently my sociologist brain is back in high gear.
4. God, the past few days have been like waking up from a crash. The last 2 weeks were basically heavy cortisol intake and it's taking my body a while to recover. Every day I'm a bit less tired, but everything is still kind of overwhelming. My mom, whose birthday it is today, has also decided that this week is Mourning Over How Not Alike She And I Are week so every day I've called her she's been super distant and/or started crying on the phone, refusing to tell me what's wrong because "if I don't understand then she can't explain to me". I just. I'm far away, there's nothing I can do, if I don't call her daily she gets upset, when I do call she cries and refuses to tell me what's up, my dad says she's been fine at home so clearly it's something specifically to do with me and I just. I am so tired of playing this game and especially double, super tired considering my goal for this week is to make it through without hopping back on the stress train.

