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Wednesday, May 22nd, 2013 02:35 pm
1. Scifi author Kameron Hurley keeps writing articles the titles of which seem so enormously appealing? Because they're all about writing matriarchies and stepping away from Western history as the basis of everything and writing women and brutality and war and needless to say ALL OF THESE ARE MY INTERESTS but it's like... after two books I think were genuinely very good (though not unflawed) she wrote the latest part of her trilogy in a way that was utterly terrible and full of racist/sexist/etc fail and I... I just can't take her writing about these issues seriously anymore. Even though she'd likely have interesting things to say regardless? I just can't bring myself to read any non-fiction she's written about how not to fail. IDK. I'm more willing to buy her next book if it looks promising than I am to read a 1000 word essay on writing.

2. Work is work, today, and so of course I went on tumblr and searched for "science bros". Among many NSFW and delightfully intimate images, this one has cheered me up the most (SFW). I don't even know. (Also, made me think of [personal profile] thingswithwings's fic, of course.)

3. Other delightful things, I keep stumbling upon this in an open tab and smiling - junior hockey players kiss after a win. What makes this truly delightful is how utterly unapologetic they were about it afterwards. Not that I want to write about the way culture constructs masculinity around violence - sports, the military - and how every single "tough guy" occupation is actually an occupation where you have an unbelievable level of intimacy with your (same-gender) coworkers and the cultural work that goes into "normalizing" that intimacy and distancing itself from anything romantic and sexual when the spectrum of human feelings is really not that black and white... oh wow can you tell I'm back in academia? Took a semester but apparently my sociologist brain is back in high gear.

4. God, the past few days have been like waking up from a crash. The last 2 weeks were basically heavy cortisol intake and it's taking my body a while to recover. Every day I'm a bit less tired, but everything is still kind of overwhelming. My mom, whose birthday it is today, has also decided that this week is Mourning Over How Not Alike She And I Are week so every day I've called her she's been super distant and/or started crying on the phone, refusing to tell me what's wrong because "if I don't understand then she can't explain to me". I just. I'm far away, there's nothing I can do, if I don't call her daily she gets upset, when I do call she cries and refuses to tell me what's up, my dad says she's been fine at home so clearly it's something specifically to do with me and I just. I am so tired of playing this game and especially double, super tired considering my goal for this week is to make it through without hopping back on the stress train.
Wednesday, May 22nd, 2013 03:33 am
It's now May 22nd, my 60th birthday, and following up on a suggestion from [personal profile] sharpest_asp, I am starting to reflect on the changes that the years have wrought, and attempting to focus on those changes that have created the most joy for others in my life and for me. I don't know whether everyone on my access list would be interested in reading the reflections, whether others who are not yet interested on my access list would be interested, and whether I should make the filter opt-in or opt-out. I think for people who are already on my access list, I'll make it opt-out; I'll assume that you're interesting in reading my reflections, and count on you to let me know if you would like to be removed from that filter. For others, if you would like access, please let me know, and we'll talk about it.

I'm going to lie down now, and see what happens -- I need to be up in 3 hours -- but I'll try to get to setting all this up and starting to write soon. Perhaps I'll even make a commitment to posting reflections regularly, and you can then hold me accountable to it; I'm not quite ready to make such a commitment yet.

As a promissory note, I'll share one thing now with everyone. It's now 3:33 AM, and 333 is a special number for me. At 3:33 pm every day, and at 3:33 am if I'm awake, as I often am, I stop for a minute of gratitude. Why is 333 special to me? It was my lottery number in the military conscription for the war in Vietnam. I am grateful every day that I was not called to serve my country in that war, specifically that I did not see combat in Southeast Asia. I have many reasons for feeling this way, but right now I'll share the most egocentric of them. Although it is possible that serving in the military at that time would have improved my life, the evidence available to me suggests that it would have made my life worse, and that I might have come back, if I did come back, significantly messed up by what I had seen and done, not to mention possible injuries.

I feel that I must say that I intend no disrespect to anyone who has served or is now serving in the military. Discussion of my views concerning U.S. foreign policy at that time, and of my thoughts about war in general in human life, are for another time -- and initially at least, for a restricted audience. I do not want any reader who has served or is serving to feel disrespected by my gratitude that I was not called to serve in that way and at that time.

Future posts about my reflections about my life will mostly be restricted to the filter -- probably to be called "Reflections" -- that I am going to create. I'm posting this publicly so everyone will have a taste of what those reflections may be like, and can make a more informed decision about whether or not you wish to see them on your Reading page.

Thanks to all my Dreamwidth friends who have expressed good wishes to me on my 60th birthday. Although I have had the opportunity to meet only a few of you in person to date, I hope to meet more of you as time goes on, and your friendship and support mean a good deal to me.

I'm not, I think, a statistically normal denizen of Dreamwidth -- I have not yet written any fan fiction, for instance -- but I feel at home here nonetheless. It feels very risky to begin this sharing: I'm making myself very vulnerable to many people I have never met. And, the Internet, no matter how I use filters and access controls, and no matter how hard the developers of this platform work to keep private what we wish to keep private, the Internet is a very public place. What is posted here is easily accessible to those who seek it out. The controls we attempt, I think of as locking the car and putting the valuables in the trunk -- for those fortunate enough to have cars and valuables --: it makes theft less easy, but it's no prevention. Likewise, no matter how hard we try to protect our privacy online, I view it as very limited. Furthermore, I have chosen to make this journal transparent to my real world identity. Everyone who wants to know who peoppenheimer on Dreamwidth is can find out with a trivial effort. And what I post here will be on the Internet as long as there is an Internet. Even if Dreamwidth shuts down some day, my former colleague Brewster Kahle's Wayback Machine and the robotic indexers will keep its content available as long as there is an Internet. Even though I am well aware of these dangers, because I feel so at home on Dreamwidth, and because I feel that I have friends here who will be interested in reading my reflections, I'm going to give it a try.

Thank you for being interested in me.
Wednesday, May 22nd, 2013 01:36 am
1. I'm going to have to work Friday evening, which I'm not thrilled about, but at least it's in the evening so I can still sleep in, and since I have to cut hours elsewhere in order to be able to work Friday, I am not going in until two tomorrow, so I can sleep in then, too. :D (In fact, while I will set my alarm for one just in case, I will almost certainly be able to wake up without the alarm, which is always nice. I hate being jerked out of sleep like I was this morning.)

2. Tried another new Graze snack today. :) Summer berry compote )

3. I had french toast for dinner, and not just any french toast, but raisin bread french toast. So good!

4. I finally finished watching Madoka Magica. It was pretty good! It's not my favorite thing ever (the first half especially was kind of boring, and if I hadn't known vague spoilery stuff about it that made me want to keep going, I would probably have dropped it), but I enjoyed it. Mostly I'm glad to have watched it because it's one of those things that everyone seems to always be talking about and referencing and now I know what they're talking about!
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 11:55 pm
In the last 24 hours, I posted the following to Twitter:


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Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 11:50 pm
Hi Azz!

Day 1 of the Epic Work Thing was a success: if the only problems worth mentioning are one guy without a registration packet, one substitute attendee, a broken zipper, nobody knowing which of 6 SSIDs were meant for us, dodgy audio on one video (video was bad, sound system amplified it), and the loose phone charger I brought not working: the first day went hella well.

Your backup battery is in the bathroom.
You have pants strewn liberally about the room.
Put your pajamas in the dirty laundry bundle.
The key is on the other bedside table.
Wake up, clean up, get dressed, and check out. The conference hotel has breakfast, internet, and work. You picked breakfast. You know you liked it.

Goodnight.
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 10:32 pm
the artist has come to terms with the fact that we've hidden away all his materials and is willing to deign to lower himself to more traditional media.

Read more... )
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 04:58 pm
I'll donate $100 to the Electronic Freedom Foundation in the name of anyone who gets Bug 4527 (crossposting Markdown results in bare syntax on remote site) fixed, payable when the fix shows up in production ;)

I would really like to start using Markdown. Unfortunately most of my friends are not cool enough to use Dreamwidth, so I am dependent on crossposting, so this issue makes Markdown use impossible for me. It should be a very small patch; my guess when I looked at it was under 10 lines, though proper error-handling and comments and such will bump it up some.
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 11:34 pm
Occasionally I come across a poem that breaks my heart, or brings it to my mouth, or elsewise causes me to gasp at its beauty, at the ache of it, to cover my mouth with my hands without realising it in case my escaping breath betrays me.

There are a couple of people I already e-mail these poems to. If you would like to be on the list of people to whom I send occasional poems (BCCed, of course), let me know (and your preferred e-mail address) in comments (which are screened). And, of course, feel free to opt out at any time.

(The ones I e-mail round don't overlap much with the ones I post here, I think, slightly to my surprise; and I should flag up that you'll mostly be getting stuff that I want to draw to the attention of The First Two People; but you are nonetheless welcome. ♥)

This is the most recent one, via [syndicated profile] breathe_poetry_feed:

Cartography for Beginners
for CL

First of all, you will need to choose the correct blue
to indicate water. This should not be too watery.
You must remember: people do not like wet feet.
If there is no water to indicate, no matter,
you must still elect a blue. Let me recommend
eggshell, at a push azure. Choose a symbol
for church/temple/mosque/synagogue. Choose
a symbol for pub. Dedicate your life
to the twin and warring gods of Precision
and Wild Abandon. People do not like
to be lost. Buy Mandelbrot's 1967 paper
on the coastline paradox, put it on the highest shelf -
but buy a stepladder. Take a little licence with rivers,
especially their curves and estuaries. Add
an oxbow lake if at all possible. If the area you
are mapping has no sea/lakes/rivers/streams,
I have to question why you are bothering. You
won't get to use that lovely blue you spent so long
deciding upon. Do the Norfolk fens instead. Better
yet, East Anglia in its future state, quite utterly
submerged like a sodden Constable. Come on,
get your coat, I'll show you. You won't need your shoes.

--Emily Hasler
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 05:35 pm
Due to a mix-up, there is a reservation at the original price of $111 per night at the Madison. I just asked Sarah, the reservations manager to hold it for tonight in case some one wants it. I must give her the answer tomorrow morning (Wednesday) at 8:00am.

Email me immediately at dweiums@gmail.com
Diane Williams

I'm on east coast time, but I stay up late. I have also notified Jennie about the room.

Reservation Number 295143
Guest Name Diane Williams
Adults 2
Arrival Date Thursday, May 23, 2013
Departure Date Monday, May 27, 2013
Nightly Rate $111.00 from May 23 - May 26

I'm not sure, but I believe it is a two bed room.
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 02:02 pm
halloa! i will be flying out to WisCon tomorrow, with Moomin! So excited.

our 3rd roommate will not be getting in till friday morning, so if you need a space to crash on Wed. or Thurs night, or need a spot to rest up during the day, just ask!

Yay yay yay I am very excited. But I have to keep thinking about work for another couple hours here. I worked late last night figuring that today my head would be full of packing and plans and it is VERY DISTRACTING. :)
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 09:01 pm
From [personal profile] thingswithwings, here.

(Yes, I am thinking of writing an enormous amount of meta comparing Roddenberry's Trek to Abrams' Trek. Why do you ask?)
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 08:43 pm
Cynical brain: so that's how Yahoo are financing Tumblr - by screwing over photographers.

Rational brain: so before, I paid $25/year for unlimited space with no advertising. Now (because my pro account lapsed without sufficient warning) I get to pay double for less space, and as an added bonus, the pleasure of providing Yahoo with an advertising platform. Forgive me if I don't understand which bit I'm meant to be impressed by?

I guess the time has come for me to finally redevelop thisiskatie.co.uk as a portfolio website rather than a photoblog. (In the copious spare time I have between exam revision, doing a full-time work placement, helping to run a conference and getting enough sleep, of course.)
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 03:03 pm
Rumors were swirling over the weekend about Yahoo acquiring Tumblr. Or, possibly, Facebook acquiring Tumblr to prevent anyone else from doing so.

Yahoo did buy Tumblr, and of course lots of people were talking about it this morning. I think in the long run, Tumblr was kind of doomed anyway without a buyout deal, because they still haven't figured out a good business model. And with the spectre of a Facebook buyout raised, I'd take my chances with a Yahoo-owned Tumblr over a Facebook-owned Tumblr.

That being said, I think Yahoo's model has been pretty detrimental to the properties they've bought overall. Their pattern has been to integrate Yahoo-specific hooks into their new acquisitions, then benignly neglect them, then reap the results of that neglect by shrinking the staff (whether by pulling them to work on other projects or just letting them go), and then close or "sunset" them, in a way that would make it difficult for those properties to pull out the Yahoo-restricted code and go on as an independent from there. Then again, I might still be traumatized on multiple vectors from how they handled the Delicious "sunset," both personal and professional. (And that's far from the first acquisition Yahoo has screwed up.)

I *want* Mayer to be the second coming, to have a coherent vision, for her actions to all be driving towards her vision. I want to regain my confidence in Flickr's future. The new mobile app has helped a little; it's still playing catch-up, but it seems to indicate that they're not fully asleep at the wheel anymore. But I'm still wary. And realistically, the only thing that's going to give me confidence isn't going to be a lightning bolt one-time action, it's going to be seeing Mayer's actions to turn Yahoo around *work* over a long period of time, while minimizing the destruction of things I love in Yahoo's custody.

But Tumblr, for me, is a take-it-or-leave-it proposition. I'm not nearly as engaged over there as I am elsewhere. What drew me into the Tumblr stories: the footnote that Yahoo was expected to announce updates to Flickr Monday afternoon.

Flickr account type comparison table: the updates )

1. Eligible Pro members have the option to switch to a Free account until 8/20/2013. What happens after that, I don't know. Automatic downgrade to Free? Automatic switch to Ad-Free?
2. Check your account history to see if you're currently on a renewing subscription or a one-time purchase.
3. It is possible to upgrade to the "Doublr" account, with all the privileges of the Free account type, and an additional terabyte of storage for a total of 2TB. Doublr is priced at $500/year. Because of this, I didn't bother giving it its own column in the table. Honestly, Doublr and Ad-Free seem more like a la carte add-ons than fully differentiated account types.
4. It is unclear to me what quality of HD video this limits Pro accounts to. Somebody with more familiarity with typical video file sizes will know better than I will. It's also unclear that the previous restriction of only Pro users being able to view HD video will remain; more likely that the FAQ just hasn't been updated yet.
5. And here's where we come to the big problem for me.

So it's unclear how much longer Pro users will get to keep their Pro accounts. And when Pro users switch to Ad-Free, they'll be paying twice as much per year to not see ads. And Flickr's wording here is pretty canny:

Pro accounts have "ad-free browsing and sharing;" Ad-Free accounts only promise "no ads in your browsing experience."


In other words? Free users are going to see ads on your Flickr photo pages, at the very least. What happens when you embed your Flickr-hosted photos somewhere else? And a free user, or somebody without a Flickr or Yahoo account, views your photos?

And yet, where else can we go? Where else can I see my friends' photos in a convenient community feed, and vice versa? We already know the answer to that, the ones we didn't want to hear: Facebook or Google.

I've been a Flickr Pro user for a number of years; even after I expressed my doubts about Flickr's long-term viability last year, I've kept my Pro account. As much as SmugMug is a better fit for my desire to be prioritized over advertisers as a customer, it's not community-oriented in its vision. There is no friends feed, like there is on Flickr and Facebook, and even if there was, I know exactly one other person using SmugMug right now anyway. And the costs aren't trivial ($40/year for the lowest level account). But they do seem to be rooted in the reality of running a successful independent web service. It's not perfect. 500px may be another option, but I don't see a friends' photos feed there, either. Both seem to be more oriented towards helping you sell your photos, though.

I'd hoped Yahoo investment in Flickr would help turn it into a solid Facebook competitor. Not this round. Nobody trusts Google/Picasa, either, and they're barreling straight down the realname path Facebook forged. So. How do we solve this? Go back to personal hosting? Wait, isn't RSS dying, too? :P Plus, the problems of the network effect are well-known, and difficult to overcome. We have this conundrum in modern Western society - we've come to trust and support larger global companies and forgive them their follies more than our smaller independent companies at the same time that we've also ceded our financial stakes in them to global advertisers.

But of course, all the smaller services I've been supporting haven't integrated modern things I consider core to my internet experience, like friends feeds or social collaboration. (Pinboard, I'm grateful for you; you saw a gigantic horde of us coming over from your social ex-competitor and you listened to us and made room for us, but you have a massive metadata problem in your "antisocial" culture, and that is probably eventually going to cause me to leave, because that's a cultural lack-of-fit I desperately want to fix. SmugMug, you're fancy and powerful, but I can't even share my photos with my friends without having to send them back out elsewhere like Facebook?) Which, you know, one-person products. Or at least small-team products. And I'm not saying these are simple things to implement, at all. They require dev time that's at a premium in smaller companies, and they also require that the visionary for the given software thinks that social stuff like that is a priority or a benefit for the culture they've been developing. But dammit, I still want more.
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Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 07:58 pm
Previously unread.

Raffles, cricketer and gentleman thief. With his trusty Bunny as sidekick and accomplice. Bit unspecific in the descriptions of various heists and v appallingly full of idle racism (not unexpected from the time of writing, though).

That aside, a curious read and not unpleasant, as such. Definitely something that needs to be dosed out carefully rather than binge-read.

Can I recommend it? With reservations, it is more an example of its time rather than a good example of the genre. And Drake Majistral has better crime, more toff and all in all more (although no cricket). Make of that what you will.
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Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 01:08 pm
One links round-up, including: language and mental illness, sex education for children and adults, LinkedIn and sex work, substituting "sex" for "rape," and "kangaroo care" for premature babies.



t's MMMMonday! At the beginning of each week, we bring you special, maintainer-curated content intended to enrich your VP experience. Please note that you can find past MMMMonday posts using the featured-posts tag.

I stumbled upon this piece and thought it was a perspective that might be interesting to our members: Why I Believe Bra-Fitting is a Feminist Issue.

An excerpt:
"On a somewhat similar note, I feel bra sizing can play a huge role in body acceptance. I feel that accepting that you should wear (for example) a 30HH, rather than a 36DD, can be one of the biggest things you can do when it comes to accepting your body. Women are constantly told they need to be smaller, to be daintier, to take up less space, and bra sizing hasn’t escaped this."

If you want to share, what is your bra size? Have you always worn the correct size for you? What has your experience with bra sizing been like? How does bra size affect your feelings about your breasts? Do you agree that bra sizing is a feminist issue? You're invited to share any thoughts on the piece, these questions, or whatever in the comments!
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 01:49 am
1. I got my third Graze box in the mail today! Which reminds me, I posted these reviews on instagram and tumblr but completely forgot to post them over here, so have some snack reviews:

Three snacks under the cut! )

2. I remembered to start my new book club book! I posted about this round's book over on tumblr and will probably talk more about it here in my Wednesday Reading post.

3. I started watching Shingeki no Kyojin and am really enjoying it so far (though not as much as Hataraku Maou-sama, which is the awesomest). I will probably read the manga, too, at some point.
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 12:11 am
Is on May 22.

I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed, and don't know what to write.
Monday, May 20th, 2013 11:55 pm
In the last 24 hours, I posted the following to Twitter:


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Monday, May 20th, 2013 10:09 pm
I don't actually know the answer to this question, which is why I'm devoting an entry to it now, and may re-visit it. Would Alison Bechdel's friend Liz Wallace be able to watch a movie about my life?

Obviously I am not the only woman* in my life, and not the only woman of significance -- there are more women around me than just bit players; there are women who I introduce to my other friends by their names (or unique monikers for privacy purposes). Unlike The Shawn Era, I'm doing pretty well here.

I talk to the women in my life. Perhaps not all of them as often as I probably ought (I should call Mama sometime that I'm not hair-on-fire busy) but I do talk to various people, and fairly often for me, even if it's not all that often for each of them.

I talk to the women in my life about things which are not men. Let's explore today.

I talked with [personal profile] norabombay about an entire array of mostly-not-men topics, including dogs, work/job-hunting, food, cooking, and various shenanigans. I'm not sure if His Crumbliness came up at all today.

I talked with my Overlady at work! Mostly this was about the Upcoming Event, but we had a good long debriefing about a number of other things. I think there were two conversations about men: the Stage Manager hasn't given me back my highlighters yet ("Order another set.") and that our Grandmanager's response to seeing me in tears that one time will never not be funny. (There was something stressing me out which touched on work, he was the first work person I ran into, I started to cry, and his face went through this incredible series of truly hilarious gymnastics, which were entirely worth the price of admission.) (The irony of the fact that I'm illustrating the fact that mostly we didn't talk about men, by enumerating the men we did talk about, does not escape me.)

The interlude where I retrieved a co-worker who was in town from Israel for the upcoming Thing, and whose meeting got canceled thus leaving me in charge of Monday's hospitality, and all the related conversations and introductions don't count, as that co-worker was a man.

All of the deeply hilarious administrivia related to the Upcoming Thing counts, because it's the Upcoming Thing, and most of the people I was speaking to about it are women: my Overlady, her Understudy, my manager, the other manager with the fabulous sweater -- we had a great old time making sure that stuff was ready and organized.

I had occasion to be pretty fabulously organized about office supplies. This entry is not the place to go into detail, as it was in support of a talk for some male co-workers.

On my way home, Nora and I talked again, about anything and everything as usual. After I got home and started poking Twitter, [twitter.com profile] amyty and I discussed the fitbit.

And so, to bed.


* For practical purposes.
Monday, May 20th, 2013 10:05 pm
I have 32 works archived at AO3. Pick a number from 1 (the most recent) to 32 (the first thing I posted there), and I'll tell you three things I currently like about it.

Personal maunder )
Monday, May 20th, 2013 11:21 pm
The last few days have been horrible, pain-wise. There's a weather system basically sitting on top of Sioux Falls, and I forgot my meds at home. Tonight is especially bad, to the point where sitting still for more than a few seconds makes me want to cry. So I'm writing this up, and then I will have a shot of brandy, and then I will hope that I can sleep. Somehow. Ow.
Monday, May 20th, 2013 10:49 pm
  • "So You Want to Read YA?", a guest post by Amy Stern at Stacked. Everything she says there is completely worth reading, except for how I think Rob Thomas' later statements about his work have poisoned everything he wrote earlier in his career, to the extent that I find it impossible to talk about his earlier work in any non-negative fashion.[1]
  • "Specimens: Figurines, fishers, bugs and bats – how things in the world become sacred objects in a museum": I want to understand how things come to take their place — especially in museums and collections — as embodiments of knowledge, artefacts out of time and nature, provoking curiosity and wonder. How they become objectified.
  • "Fist-clenchingly poor science": But every time such fist-clenchingly poor science as the current paper is published, the prejudice is reinforced and the cause of open access publishing undermined. Thus, while I’m sure everyone involved is dedicated and scrupulous, it is paramount that PLOS works harder to increase its editorial standards to reduce the chances of such embarrassingly weak science being published.
  • "Colleges Leaving Low-Income Students Behind": Schools have gone from helping to make college more affordable for those with the greatest financial need to strategically awarding merit aid to students who can increase their standings in rankings like U.S. News & World Report and bring in more revenue.






1. But then, I'm still capable of saying positive things about Ender's Gamer and Speaker for the Dead, and I'm sure plenty of other smart people feel the way about Orson Scott Card that I feel about Rob Thomas. Apparently I draw the line somewhere after "gay marriage is destroying my family" and before "women who make rape accusations are lying liars who lie." Or possibly I think Ender and Speaker are good enough books to get me past my anger at their creator; certainly I can no longer read lesser Card with any pleasure. And the highest quality Rob Thomas surpasses the quality of the worst OSC, but doesn't even come close to the best. [back]
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 12:16 pm
I have told so many tales and fabliaux
Which I have found, old and new,
That I have not finished for the past two years;
By the faith that I owe Saint John
I don't believe that I will compose another,
Except this -- of Bèrenger of the Long Arse.
You have never heard it before,
And, upon my soul, I shall tell it now;
I don't intend to be slow nor long.
Hear what Guèrin would relate
Of what happened in Lombardy
(Where people are not very brave),
Of a knight who had taken as a wife,
As I have heard, a noble lady,
Daughter of a rich nobleman,
Whereas he was the son of a churl,
Of a rich and prosperous usurer
Who had plenty of wine and grain;
Sheep and cattle and coins
He had by bushels and barrels;
And the nobleman owed him
So much that he could not pay,
And so he gave his daughter to the usurer's son.
Thus good heritage is abased,
And noblemen and counts
All decline and come to shame.
Those who marry beneath themselves for money
Ought to be ashamed of it,
And great harm they have from it.
Evil and lowborn knights
And cowards issue from such folk,
Who covet gold and silver
More than doing chivalrous deeds.
Thus does nobility perish.

But to return to that which I began... )
Monday, May 20th, 2013 07:06 pm

The room has been picked up. Thank you!

Because of a family emergency, [personal profile] cynthia1960 and I cannot attend WisCon this year. We have a room in the Governors' Club reserved in my name for Thursday evening through Wednesday morning. If you have been looking for a Governors' Club room, please contact me through whump@dreamwidth.org to arrange a transfer.
Monday, May 20th, 2013 07:53 pm
Brent's in Utah. My moon is dark, my stars are gone.


They'll return eventually.
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Monday, May 20th, 2013 07:23 pm
The Con could still use some extra hands, so if you just want good karma, or desperately need a collectable WisCon mug read this: http://wisconnews.blogspot.com/2013/05/volunteer-needs-at-wiscon-37.html
Tuesday, May 21st, 2013 12:53 am
BPAL does a single-note perfume oil named "Hungarian Caraway". That tries to, you know, smell like caraway seeds. (I assume. Having not tried it or even read descriptions. Which is perhaps erroneous, given that I recently came across a scent named "Mit Schlagobers" which claims to be kiwi-scented or some shit. Relevant information: "Schlagobers" is an Austrian term for whipped cream. I DON'T FUCKING KNOW.)

Every time across it, my reaction is approximately "... O_o no but that is FOOD why would I want to smell like FOOD what is WRONG with you people??"

This is funny only because, um, most of my other favourite scents?

... vanilla. Apricot. Blackberries.

BUT APPARENTLY IT IS ONLY FOOD IF IT IS FROM THE MOTHERLAND. IDEK. (And please, as I say this, bear in mind that I consider apricot FROM THE MOTHERLAND for the purposes of most of my interactions with it.)
Monday, May 20th, 2013 02:23 pm
[personal profile] rushthatspeaks reviews a book on Native American ghosts in American literature; the book sounds fascinating, but I find the essay talking about it just as fascinating, since it talks about how we interface with these vast cultural stories.

It's fabulous. I recommend it. This entry is not about that. It's about something completely different.

See, the essay sparked a series of half-formed thoughts about how this plays out in Canadian contexts. But I, in fact, spent as much of my academic career dodging Canadian literature and history as humanly possible (I regret it now, but I was young and enamoured of medieval Europe). So the amount I'd be able to substantively fit into that conversation could fit in a teacup. I thought for a while that I might have a little smidgen to contribute and spent a while googling around for something related, but I found I'd misremembered it and found it didn't apply at all.

But while I was doing so, I found a review for Candace Savage's A Geography of Blood, which is a nonfiction book about the time she spent living in a small town in Saskatchewan, and travelling and researching the stories of her own intimate circle of the vast (but certainly not featureless) sweep of the prairies.

I haven't read her book, but I'm trying to articulate just what about the book made me go Oh god, you too? since A Geography of Blood is about the same things I think I would write a book about if I stayed on the prairies. On one level that's pretty similar just because those are the issues you deal with living in Albertisaskatoba, but it also sounds like, to her, this was not some cognitive exercise. It makes me think: Oh wow, she felt it too.

I don't know how to describe that feeling of... acutely felt disconnection from the land. That call that the land has stories and wants you to listen a little closer. Or, no. *flaps hands around* The sense of eternity about the prairies, the sense of "everything that has been lost and everything we are now losing". Is that it? Or--how did we put it? I find people here in Vancouver who will talk about this thing I'm trying to describe much more than people actually on the flatlands. And not everybody feels it. But we get to talking, some prairie expatriates and me, and we talk about feeling, and leaving because we felt, this kind of sense that dealing with that sky and that land... asks you to make peace with something eternal, as absolute and unnegotiable as the horizon, something about mortality and emptiness and... phagh.

We talk about this feeling that if we stayed, the land would ask to take something from us. That we would have to give it up. Not that we'd be hurt or injured by the deal, just... changed.

I've described it and had a professor go, "Yes! That." A client talked to me about it despairing that anyone in Vancouver would know what it was or why she felt its absence. I have Albertan friends who talk about it in circumlocutions.

This is part of why, when I think about moving, I have to feel a place that "feels right". This is my best try at explaining what the quality and nature of that kind of feeling is, and I don't know if I've even managed.

(From earlier today, before I read any of this, I was discussing with a friend that even the small town in a picture I showed her was too built-up and urban for me:

(8:50:22 AM) Friend: Jesus, how are you making it through the day in Vancouver?!
(8:50:27 AM) [personal profile] staranise: DRUGS
(8:50:35 AM) [personal profile] staranise: I mean
(8:50:46 AM) [personal profile] staranise: mostly just: I put up with always feeling kind of itchy)
Monday, May 20th, 2013 08:03 pm
Previously unread.

Another book in Honorverse. Almost completely free of Honor, though. Competently executed, but still not making me care much for anyone in the book.

The ending feels quite abrupt (initially, I thought I had a partial ebook, but after verifying that I had the real deal, it was still "out of book" rather than "this is an end").

If you are a keen Honorverse fan, this is probably just right. But, for me, it was text to while time away.
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Monday, May 20th, 2013 07:58 pm
Previously unread.

This is one of the books in the Darkship Thieves series, the third I believe. On the whole, eminently readable. MilSF or as close to to make quibbling about specifics silly.

It may, maybe, be hard to read as a standalone, but I doubt it. The requisite background info is disseminated add needed, without infodumps.

All in all, I have no complaints.
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Monday, May 20th, 2013 01:01 pm
I'm currently taking Geodon, 40 mg, twice a day. I've been having episodes of extreme tiredness, complete with slurred speech, inability to focus, falling asleep mid-word, etc, and this weekend it landed me in the ER. The ER doc thinks it's because of the Geodon and ordered me to call the pdoc.

I just got off the phone with him, and he wants me to stop the morning dose. He told me that there shouldn't be any side effects from withdrawal, but has anyone stopped Geodon and had a different experience? I know that it's the drug I take to control my mania, and without it, that may come back, but should I watch for anything in addition to that?

ETA - there's no tag for either Geodon or its generic name, ziprasidone
Monday, May 20th, 2013 07:23 am
Neal Stephenson novel.

I know, I'm only twenty years late on actually reading this. It's... well, I'm fascinated (which might go a long ways to explaining why I accidentally discovered a 2:30AM while reading it last night.

Setting off some interesting interconnected feels about who I am and what I've chosen to do with my life. Of especial note: reasons Hiro gives for pizza driving. Y.T.'s mum's workplace sounds altogether too familiar.

Also interesting to look at...again, the book's twenty years old at this point, and the facets of 'Net portrayed within are...somewhat estranged from the way the actual tech has developed, but the roots are plainly showing if you look closely, and it's a fascinating exercise in 'what if'. Rather the same as K's collection of 50s & 60s scifi, really, which contains a hell of a lot of space travel hypothesizing without the benefit of history to work from.

Edit: I'm not quite done with the book yet; were it up to me I'd probably have finished it completely, but pesky physical body forced a sleep hiatus on page 314. so. I can see some of the plot threads converging, but would appreciate remaining unspoiled, at least until I finish the book (which, uh, likely tonight, sanity be damned.)
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Monday, May 20th, 2013 09:22 am
Mondays, every week, let's celebrate ourselves, to start the week right. Tell me what you're proud of. Tell me what you accomplished last week, something -- at least one thing -- that you can turn around and point at and say: I did this. Me. It was tough, but I did it, and I did it well, and I am proud of it, and it makes me feel good to see what I accomplished. Could be anything -- something you made, something you did, something you got through. Just take a minute and celebrate yourself. Either here, or in your journal, but somewhere.

(And if you feel uncomfortable doing this in public, I've set this entry to screen any anonymous comments, so if you want privacy, comment anonymously and I won't unscreen it. Also: yes, by all means, cheer each other on when you see something you want to give props to!)
Monday, May 20th, 2013 09:01 am
Last night on our way home from Ohio, I got the "come to Jesus" email I'd been expecting from a professor giving me one last chance to get my finals in today. So I stayed up really late (for me) and wrote as much as I could before slamming in a measly 5 hours of sleep and continuing on. I also sent the Farmer to Indianapolis alone for his doctor's appointment. It was going to be a fun day trip with a scrummy lunch and running around at a park we've been tempted by, but I have to finish these finals. There was just no other way.

Which means, of course, the email system we use is COMPLETELY down. Zimbra will not load. At. All.
Thankfully, I can trot my little butt the two blocks to school and print my papers to deliver in hard-copy (whew); but what if I hadn't checked my school email on the road? I'm not in the habit of doing so, and I really prefer not to deal with my school email at all when I'm on my phone because it's clunky and annoying. Without seeing that email, I'd be in Indy until quite late today and would have missed my window of grace completely.

Annoyances.
Monday, May 20th, 2013 01:05 am
Had a very nice day off today. I actually got to sleep in, which I haven't really done in a couple weeks, since while Irene was here, I was waking up early to do stuff even when I didn't have work. I vacuumed, did some translating, and ran some errands, but otherwise just didn't really do much. Very relaxing.
Sunday, May 19th, 2013 11:55 pm
In the last 24 hours, I posted the following to Twitter:


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Monday, May 20th, 2013 09:20 am
So, after two weeks of endless stress, I spent Friday studying 11am-9:30pm to finish my goddamn paper, then spent Saturday at my parents', alternatively participating in drama I REALLY DID NOT NEED and going to the beach. \\\\\\\\\o///////// THE BEACH WAS MAJESTIC AND WONDERFUL. I wore my new bathing suit and it was awesome. Just. OMG, amazing life choices: going to the beach.

After that I had lunch with my folks and then drove back to Tel Aviv to watch the Hawks/Wings game with [personal profile] roga at the new sports bar that we'd never been to before. It was pretty much completely empty except one Red Wings fan and one dude in a Hossa shirt. Again to my surprise, once ascertaining that neither of us was from Chicago, the other hockey fans pretty much ignored us. IDK! I'm still trying to figure out how sports fandom works IRL. Maybe it's weird to be too friendly with people you don't know who are at the bar to cheer for the same team as you? IDEK.

I was wearing my Ovi shirt and as we exited the bar some dude shouted "Hey, NICE OVECHKIN SHIRT!" at me and I turned around and went "thank you!" and it was delightful.

After the game I went to pick [personal profile] cesy up at the airport.

On Sunday I decided to skip work, for multiple reasons, and instead went to enjoy a morning at the Tel Aviv port with snacks and [personal profile] cesy before heading over to uni to hand in my stupid paper. I'd waited this long because I couldn't find the guidelines for submitting academic papers for this particular faculty (I'd never taken classes there before and this was a special occasion), so I waited for the admin offices to be open, but of course THEY HAVE NO GUIDELINES because WTF. First time in my life that a faculty does not have ANY SORT OF GUIDELINES for how to submit academic papers that are less than a thesis.

So, whatever, I went to buy a binder and print out the paper all of which took about an hour, handed it in, and then realized it's my mom's birthday in 3 days and I don't have a present for her. So, RUSHED OVER TO THE MALL to get her the present I've been thinking of, then went back and hung out with [personal profile] cesy and [personal profile] roga for the rest of the day. We watched Mystery, Alaska! IDEK, Russel Crowe, IDEK.

This morning I'm back at work: meetings and then skipping class to work on a presentation I have for another class (that is also today). Next week? I have another presentation. THIS GODDAMN SEMESTER. It's nearly exam season and I've been drowning in work this entire fucking time.

I'm probably not going to have much computer time this week, so just FYI. Replies to emails will probably take longer than usual. Though, if any Israeli fangirls are reading this: Friday's meetup is being arranged, that is a priority and I'll be sending emails as soon as I have logistics figured out.

Things I want to do today: watch Game of Thrones, hang out, lounge on the beach. Things I will actually do today: work, work, study, work, study.
Sunday, May 19th, 2013 11:45 pm
You know your laptop cooling systems are not up to snuff when you have to instruct the CPU to max out at 60% of its capacity to ensure it doesn't overheat.
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Sunday, May 19th, 2013 08:35 pm
In October last year, a skydiver called Felix Baumgartner leapt out of a helium ballon and did a 4 minute 20 second freefall through space, before parachuting to Earth. In a genius marketing ploy, indoor skydiving company Airkix offered the equivalent amount of time in one of their windtunnels for £42. (I don't recall seeing a reference to the life, the universe and everything in the publicity - either I missed it, or they missed a trick. Anyway.)

Yesterday, I finally got round to cashing in my voucher for some flight time, and it was truly amazing :D they broke my voucher down into two lots of 1'15" and one super long 1'50" flight (the third one being almost the equivalent to a tandem skydive) - and on the last one, I was given the chance to spiral to the top of the tunnel with the instructor, and then freefall to the bottom again. It was AMAZING.

Also, FLYINSKIRRUL!



[twitter.com profile] maznu is now talking about us doing a bungee jump over Salford Quays :)
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Sunday, May 19th, 2013 02:08 pm
Join me in the Concourse pool (third floor) at 8:30am on Friday and Sunday.

It's pretty short for laps, but there's plenty of room for movement which feels great! No gravity! No falling! No sweating!

I've got a water-walking, -running and -stretching routine I'm happy to share.


And if you have issues with some of the words in the title, come to the panel on

Taking Our Slurs Back
Saturday 10:30 − 11:45pm
Assembly
The panel for fatties, crips, sluts, bitches, whores, crazies, old farts, queers, and more. Who is reclaiming language and how? How can we address intergenerational conflicts about reclamatory language? What about tensions when it comes to who is 'allowed' to use it?
Sunday, May 19th, 2013 11:32 am
The morning, my quasi-estranged dip of a father sent me an email that has me all kinds of annoyed. He said:
"This is a long article but it parallels alot that is going on in my life now. Bo Bowen was an ideal as I grew up."
The article he included is this one, about a Mississippi boy doing evangelism in the Ukraine.

I am officially concerned about what this stupid father of mine has in his mind because the man is the opposite of a good witness for any form of Christianity. Mon Dieu.
Sunday, May 19th, 2013 06:39 am
the good part of visiting the eye doctor for my first eye exam in four years (yeah, i know, i know): getting a prescription for new glasses, since according to the eye charts my vision (usually correctable to 20/15) had slipped down to about 20/30 with the current prescription.

the bad part of etc: having to wait for the lenses for the new glasses to be manufactured, since they don't keep my prescriptions in stock :D

i also got a box of contact lenses for the first time in ages; the eye doc i had as a child put me in lenses at a pretty-much-unheard-of-at-the-time age 10 or 11, since my eyes were degenerating so rapidly he thought that maybe the lenses would keep them from continuing to degrade. (and it mostly worked! my eyes kept getting bad after that, but nowhere near as quickly.) i wore contacts for about 18 or 19 years until i got too lazy to keep up with them, and i was a little afraid that having gone back to the glasses would start the downslide back up again, but nope, still correctable to 20/15, in glasses at least. (i could get better correction with the contacts if i were going to wear them more often and thus could justify spending more money on the more expensive ones that will also correct the astigmatism, but since the contacts are only going to be for occasional use, it's definitely not worth it.) although the eye doc says that i've probably only got another few years before i'll need bifocals, whee.

i'm trying the new "high definition" lenses they've developed, for the new pair of glasses. i am very interested, since i've always had refraction problems and they're supposed to be good for staring at computer screens for long periods. i will report back.

i've also finally bitten the bullet and admitted that my damn arms are not getting better from rest/ice/steroid shots/etc, so i dropped a bunch of money on technology that's hopefully going to make things better. including giving up and admitting it's time to try to work with dictation software, despite the fact that is the exact fucking opposite of how my brain works and is probably going to be a fucking nightmare. i'm hoping that just using the voice controls for things like page down when reading long documents, dictating short bursts of things, making my notes-to-self, doing a few emails, etc, will be enough to address the problem, especially when combined with the new two-piece, super-split keyboard i ordered so i can stop reaching inward to type and exaggerating the pronation and deviation, will help enough that i don't have to use the dictation software for extended bursts of composition or creative writing, since i absolutely cannot do that verbally. (i've tried before, but at least one of the meds i'm on gives me minor-but-significant verbal aphasia and that is no place to go for a good time.)

on the bright (?) side, at least the new adaptive tech means a new laptop to go with it. this one i'm using now isn't that old, not old enough to have a ton of problems running the software or whatever, but a faster laptop will help, and i'm getting a 13" MacBook Pro instead of the 15" i have now; i'm hoping the smaller, lighter laptop will help, and it will mean i can just put the two pieces of the split keyboard on either side of the laptop more easily.

(plus, i ordered the retina display model. i mean, why not, right?)
Sunday, May 19th, 2013 06:51 pm
Plentiful sacrifice and believers in redemption
are all that is needed
so any day now
I expect some new religion
to rise up like tear gas
from the streets of New York
erupting like the rank pavement smell
released by the garbage-trucks'
baptismal drizzle.

The high priests have been ready and waiting
with their incense pans full of fire.
I do not know the rituals
the exhaltations
nor what name of the god
the survivors will worship
I only know she will be terrible
and very busy
and very old.
Sunday, May 19th, 2013 01:13 am
1. My mom's birthday is next week and I've been meaning to get her some books but keep not thinking about it when I'm actually at the computer. Tonight I remembered and finally ordered them, and while I was at it, got myself a new wiimote and nunchuk, since I'll be sending the old Wii ones to Irene along with the Wii (she was going to take it in her luggage, but there ended up not being room).

2. Speaking of finallys, I also finally got my new iphone stand thingy set up. I have been wanting a stand for ages because I facetime with Irene several times a week and it gets really annoying to hold the phone the whole time (and sometimes my hand hurts), so now I will just be able to set it on the table and not worry! She had bought me one and brought it with her, but since I wasn't actually calling her while she was here and plugging it in involves getting under my desk, which I didn't want to do, I hadn't set it up yet.

3. TWO people called in sick today at work, both of them scheduled for the same shift (it's not so bad if one person calls in sick in the morning and one person in the evening, but both at the same time means there is only one person left). I called the three people who weren't working today, but my hopes weren't high, so I was resigned to spending my last several hours of work on the register once we were down to one cashier, but someone did call and say they could work! (And it was the person I almost didn't call because I thought it was so unlikely she'd say yes. She's an older lady who only wants to work like 15 hours a week and so far has said no every time she's been asked to work an extra day or stay even an hour or half hour extra.) So while I did have to spend more time than usual helping at the registers today, it wasn't as much as I'd feared and I did manage to get a fair amount of work done at my desk.

4. I've been playing Super Mario World tonight and wow, it looks so old! It's weird because even though it's a newer game than SMB 1, 2, and 3, for some reason I remember those better. Maybe I played them more? I remember being super excited about SMW when it came out and reading all these magazine articles before the SNES's release. I'm sure I played it a lot when it was first released, but I guess I didn't go back and play it much later? idk. Anyway, I don't remember anything. Also having just been playing New SMB Wii U means that I get confused about what I can and can't do a lot. ^_^;; Can't butt pound blocks. Can't flutter with Yoshi. Can't wall jump. Some of these things can be deadly when you think you can do them and then you can't. :p I also feel like I have no goal when there's not the three big coins to collect. I'm like, okay, I'm just going through the level, but not doing anything. Having the goal just be "get to the end" is weird. I'm not used to that anymore.

5. New SMB Wii U is also super awesome and fun, though. It's also really short and easy? I mean, Mario games generally are pretty short, but this seems easier than the Wii one. I beat the cloud world tonight, which means there's just Bowser land left, and while there are still coins to go back and get, there's not a ton. Most were easy to get the first time through. (I know for sure I've completely finished worlds 1 and 2.)